It has been 3 days since Jan had her amputation. She is being a real trooper with a positive attitude, most of the time. I guess it's expected to have moments of depression and feeling sorry for yourself, but she will get through it; we will get through this.
Doctors are suppose to let her go home today. I know she will be excited to be back on her couch with her puppies. I will be glad to get home too. Last night I didn't get much sleep. Jan wanted to take her sleeping pill early so she could sleep and I could rest. Well, we were awake until 1:30 am and up before 7.
I still don't understand totally why I don't hear from more of my friends and people from church. I know I have been just as bad about calling and next thing I get is a phone call from a friend. It's not about me. I need to be the hands and feet of Christ and not focus on myself.
The nurses have been so great at Northside Hospital. Courtnee has been a favorite of both of ours. She has been here through all of Jan's surgeries. Larry and Vernon, techs at the hospital are favorites too. They all love Jan and find any excuse to drop by and visit. She always has something funny to say that sometimes throws them off. She told Vernon the other night "she didn't have a leg to stand on". He busted out laughing and they hugged. Thank goodness for a good attitude.
I am hoping she can feel comfortable to talk with me when she feels down. She will need someone and I want to be there for her.
She is sleeping now and still has episodes of dropping off to sleep, but hoping when she is off her pain meds she will be better.
Enough for now. Thankful for all we have and what lies ahead.
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Night before surgery
Well tomorrow is Jan's surgery to have her left leg amputated below the knee. So looking forward to her not being in pain and able to get up and about again. This has been such a long road for her. It's been almost 5 years since she fell and broke her leg and after countless surgeries that have only prolonged this final end, she may be able to feel better.
I know she is scared; who wouldn't be. She is worried about people staring at her; but they do now and it doesn't seem to bother her, so this will be just another getting used to period in her life. Besides being uninfected hopefully she can get off much of the pain medicine and start functioning again. (It will be so nice to go out to eat and her not fall asleep.)
Hundreds of prayers are being said for her and me as well. They are so appreciated and welcomed. The prayers have always been there but God has plans to use this situation for His good and the good of His people. Can't wait to see what He does.
Best get to sleep so I can get an early start. Was able to spend some time with a very close friend tonight. Jamie dropped by on his way to Miami to spend the night. It was so good to see him, just wish we lived closer.
To bed, to bed, you sleep head!
I know she is scared; who wouldn't be. She is worried about people staring at her; but they do now and it doesn't seem to bother her, so this will be just another getting used to period in her life. Besides being uninfected hopefully she can get off much of the pain medicine and start functioning again. (It will be so nice to go out to eat and her not fall asleep.)
Hundreds of prayers are being said for her and me as well. They are so appreciated and welcomed. The prayers have always been there but God has plans to use this situation for His good and the good of His people. Can't wait to see what He does.
Best get to sleep so I can get an early start. Was able to spend some time with a very close friend tonight. Jamie dropped by on his way to Miami to spend the night. It was so good to see him, just wish we lived closer.
To bed, to bed, you sleep head!
Thursday, January 12, 2012
New Beginnings
This is the first post on my new blog and so many new things are about. To happen. First Nadia was born last Sunday so Taiyler has a new baby sister. Jan will be getting a new leg when they get rid of the bad one. I am starting a Bible study in February. All will be some sort of new beginning and we ask God to give us faith to handle all that these new beginnings bring.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
5010 is a 4-letter word
For those not in the medical field 5010 may only seem like a number to you, but to me it is a nightmare. 5010 is the new electronic format the government has mandated for medical claims to be sent. It has caused nothing but problems, which caused a LOT more telephone calls and a LOT of angry people. I don't blame them but to make matters worse my computer had been really slow so I got a new one. The new one is giving me blue screen errors which has made it almost impossible to do my job. This too shall pass as it has in the past.
With stress up at work it has not given me much time to worry about Jan. She still has not got a date for her surgery, but it should be soon. Hoping this will go better than the last 4 1/2 years has gone for her.
It's late and I need my rest. Tomorrow is my late day but I will probably be in early. Besides, someone is coming out to show us new carpet and flooring. Maybe I can get rid of this nasty carpet.
Sweet dreams.
With stress up at work it has not given me much time to worry about Jan. She still has not got a date for her surgery, but it should be soon. Hoping this will go better than the last 4 1/2 years has gone for her.
It's late and I need my rest. Tomorrow is my late day but I will probably be in early. Besides, someone is coming out to show us new carpet and flooring. Maybe I can get rid of this nasty carpet.
Sweet dreams.
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Waiting for something to happen
Since Friday we have been waiting for something to happen. Dee is now in the hospital and hopefully Nadia will be here today, on her Daddy's birthday. Taiyler has been with me since Friday and seems oblivious to any of that.
Jan is also waiting. Friday Dr. Gupta informed Jan he would have to amputate her left leg below the knee. We just hope if doesn't get any worse and they have to go back and take more. Coming to terms with her reality is more than she can handle right now. But she will get through it.
I guess I am alright with this as I know God is in charge and will use all of this for His good. I truly believe this, but I am having a real hard time getting back into church where I can practice this for others to see. I plan on starting a Beth Moore study with several other women at the church. Since this is the first time I have stepped out to do anything like this, I am praying it will work out for all involved.
As we continue to wait, the kids are having fun and playing well together. Wish Jaelyn was here to enjoy all the fun with them. Looking forward to when she will be able to visit again or we can spend time with her in Colorado.
Until later, we wait.
Jan is also waiting. Friday Dr. Gupta informed Jan he would have to amputate her left leg below the knee. We just hope if doesn't get any worse and they have to go back and take more. Coming to terms with her reality is more than she can handle right now. But she will get through it.
I guess I am alright with this as I know God is in charge and will use all of this for His good. I truly believe this, but I am having a real hard time getting back into church where I can practice this for others to see. I plan on starting a Beth Moore study with several other women at the church. Since this is the first time I have stepped out to do anything like this, I am praying it will work out for all involved.
As we continue to wait, the kids are having fun and playing well together. Wish Jaelyn was here to enjoy all the fun with them. Looking forward to when she will be able to visit again or we can spend time with her in Colorado.
Until later, we wait.
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Ringing in the New Year!
Today began the first bell practice for the year 2012. As usual many of the ding-a-lings were not there but we do have new music to learn and it's not really that hard. We will be losing a bell ringer at the end of the school year so I guess we need to start recruiting now. Only need to count to 4 with a few "and", "a", "da" thrown in every now and then and we could make you a bell ringer.
At work I actually started feeling like I'm making progress. Will need to test out new script and setup on the system and then we can begin testing and get ready for a new download. I'm sure it's going to be the first of many to come before we have a stable product. I do feel guilty when I'm not logging new calls, but there is no progress being made on those who are patiently (for the most part) waiting on their call back. I feel I have let so many of our clients down, but you can only do so much and we are all working very hard. Enough of that, on to more joyful and uplifting thinking.
Dee called today and she has started dilating. Hopefully this weekend Nadia will be here for her family to love on. Hoping to get Taiyler for the weekend since it's been so long since I've seen her. Can't wait to see how she will be with her new baby sister. She is such a caring child but I know she can have a streak in her that could add upheaval around the house.
Jan fell asleep on the floor today. Before leaving to go to church wanted to make sure she was up so if Djuna came home and saw her laying there she would freak out thinking something was wrong. It took us a while to get her back in her chair. We first had to get her to the stool, baby steps so she didn't have to rise up so far risking putting weight on her leg or her arms giving out.
Tomorrow Jan is having a friend come down for a visit before Jan goes to the doctor Friday to find out what they want to do with her leg and before Sherry leaves on Sunday to be at MD Anderson Hospital with Jill and Pam where Jill will get her stem cell transplant. Praying that this helps with the cancer cells and destroys them. Not sure of all the details but it looks like Jill will be there 4 months. Guess they have to keep her in ICU or quarantine so she doesn't get any germs once they destroy her bone marrow or stem cells or what ever they do in the process. Prayers for them too.
I finally started reading a new book I got by Diana Gabaldon called The Scottish Prisoner. It's part of Diana's books relating to a Scotsman who is married to a woman who can travel through time. Very interesting books and I'm looking forward to reading about and exploring some of the other characters in her books with this one. Will keep you posted on how it goes.
Still doing my nightly Upper Room devotional. Some of the scriptures go with the stories but some seem to be a far stretch with the correlation. Today's theme is Controlled by the Spirit. It should be a good one. The thought for today is "Relying on the Holy Spirit can lower our boiling point." This is a good one especially as this week progresses.
It's getting late and even though I report to work tomorrow at 11:00 am, I will probably go in early and do the update testing so we can push it out the door.
Blessings to all who might eventually read this. ME
At work I actually started feeling like I'm making progress. Will need to test out new script and setup on the system and then we can begin testing and get ready for a new download. I'm sure it's going to be the first of many to come before we have a stable product. I do feel guilty when I'm not logging new calls, but there is no progress being made on those who are patiently (for the most part) waiting on their call back. I feel I have let so many of our clients down, but you can only do so much and we are all working very hard. Enough of that, on to more joyful and uplifting thinking.
Dee called today and she has started dilating. Hopefully this weekend Nadia will be here for her family to love on. Hoping to get Taiyler for the weekend since it's been so long since I've seen her. Can't wait to see how she will be with her new baby sister. She is such a caring child but I know she can have a streak in her that could add upheaval around the house.
Jan fell asleep on the floor today. Before leaving to go to church wanted to make sure she was up so if Djuna came home and saw her laying there she would freak out thinking something was wrong. It took us a while to get her back in her chair. We first had to get her to the stool, baby steps so she didn't have to rise up so far risking putting weight on her leg or her arms giving out.
Tomorrow Jan is having a friend come down for a visit before Jan goes to the doctor Friday to find out what they want to do with her leg and before Sherry leaves on Sunday to be at MD Anderson Hospital with Jill and Pam where Jill will get her stem cell transplant. Praying that this helps with the cancer cells and destroys them. Not sure of all the details but it looks like Jill will be there 4 months. Guess they have to keep her in ICU or quarantine so she doesn't get any germs once they destroy her bone marrow or stem cells or what ever they do in the process. Prayers for them too.
I finally started reading a new book I got by Diana Gabaldon called The Scottish Prisoner. It's part of Diana's books relating to a Scotsman who is married to a woman who can travel through time. Very interesting books and I'm looking forward to reading about and exploring some of the other characters in her books with this one. Will keep you posted on how it goes.
Still doing my nightly Upper Room devotional. Some of the scriptures go with the stories but some seem to be a far stretch with the correlation. Today's theme is Controlled by the Spirit. It should be a good one. The thought for today is "Relying on the Holy Spirit can lower our boiling point." This is a good one especially as this week progresses.
It's getting late and even though I report to work tomorrow at 11:00 am, I will probably go in early and do the update testing so we can push it out the door.
Blessings to all who might eventually read this. ME
Monday, January 2, 2012
A New Year!
2012 is here and we each get a new start, that is what we tell ourselves but it's just like any other day. I'm starting this year with a cold and a very bad attitude. I didn't feel like going to church. I think I have let other people;s attitudes influence me too much. Maybe God needs to jerk a know in my tail.
I have not shown love to friends and family as I should. I was really irritated with Jan yesterday because she won't stop smoking. Her addictions are stronger than her willpower and shame. I guess mine are too as every time I turn around I want to put some sort of food in my mouth. Some of my anger is being mad and upset with myself. Maybe I can figure out how to control it and work through things by writing about them. It's only the 2nd day of 2012, so I don't expect miracles overnight.
This upcoming week is going to either give Jan good or bad results. Keeping the leg may not be an option but it's hard to be optimistic and realistic at the same time. I guess if she looses her leg she can begin to take her life back. For the past 5 years her life has been on hold. Pray that whatever God has planned for her will prove to be a blessing for those around her and we will grow and persevere through this.
I need an attitude adjustment and pray that God's plans for me will be revealed and I can be a light for Him. With the attitude I have right now, I'm in the dark.
Took Jan to her Mom and Dad's yesterday. She slept in the car going and coming and partially while eating. Was able to visit with Tifanie and Mackenlie and briefly with Mike and Darlene. Had planned on picking Taiyler up but plans fell through. Haven't seen my girl in several weeks and I'm missing her.
Today started off with Jan knocking on the door to wake me up for work - I am off today and she didn't know. Was able to roll over for a short while until Lui had to get up. Checked out a few television shows and played a few games before deciding to take Jan to get her hair cut and me to get my nails done. By the time we got back home she was exhausted but wouldn't lay day.
Had bought lunch and while Jan was doing her own thing I managed to eat, go shopping, come home and finish the rest of my sandwich, finished watching the Outback Bowl (GA lost to Michigan St in OT), took the dogs out, box up things to ship to Andrea and get things together for Taiyler, Dee and Jerome, eat supper, take the dogs out again, watch The Bachelor all before she completed her sandwich from lunch. Too say she is slow is an understatement.
It's now time to head to bed. Work in the morning is going to be demanding and a girl needs her beauty sleep. Maybe I should have gone to bed earlier.
Pray for today:
Heavenly Father, start with me anew and kindle my spirit with Your love that I might be a beacon of Your light. Amen.
I have not shown love to friends and family as I should. I was really irritated with Jan yesterday because she won't stop smoking. Her addictions are stronger than her willpower and shame. I guess mine are too as every time I turn around I want to put some sort of food in my mouth. Some of my anger is being mad and upset with myself. Maybe I can figure out how to control it and work through things by writing about them. It's only the 2nd day of 2012, so I don't expect miracles overnight.
This upcoming week is going to either give Jan good or bad results. Keeping the leg may not be an option but it's hard to be optimistic and realistic at the same time. I guess if she looses her leg she can begin to take her life back. For the past 5 years her life has been on hold. Pray that whatever God has planned for her will prove to be a blessing for those around her and we will grow and persevere through this.
I need an attitude adjustment and pray that God's plans for me will be revealed and I can be a light for Him. With the attitude I have right now, I'm in the dark.
Took Jan to her Mom and Dad's yesterday. She slept in the car going and coming and partially while eating. Was able to visit with Tifanie and Mackenlie and briefly with Mike and Darlene. Had planned on picking Taiyler up but plans fell through. Haven't seen my girl in several weeks and I'm missing her.
Today started off with Jan knocking on the door to wake me up for work - I am off today and she didn't know. Was able to roll over for a short while until Lui had to get up. Checked out a few television shows and played a few games before deciding to take Jan to get her hair cut and me to get my nails done. By the time we got back home she was exhausted but wouldn't lay day.
Had bought lunch and while Jan was doing her own thing I managed to eat, go shopping, come home and finish the rest of my sandwich, finished watching the Outback Bowl (GA lost to Michigan St in OT), took the dogs out, box up things to ship to Andrea and get things together for Taiyler, Dee and Jerome, eat supper, take the dogs out again, watch The Bachelor all before she completed her sandwich from lunch. Too say she is slow is an understatement.
It's now time to head to bed. Work in the morning is going to be demanding and a girl needs her beauty sleep. Maybe I should have gone to bed earlier.
Pray for today:
Heavenly Father, start with me anew and kindle my spirit with Your love that I might be a beacon of Your light. Amen.
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